It's Mothers Day here in the UK today and I just had to write about the greatest inspiration in my life, my mum.
I have to say it's not been an easy job for her being my mum. As a teenager in particular I was not very easy. I was stroppy and irritable and did not like being told what to do even if it was for my own good. However I can honestly say that my mum has always had my best interests at heart.
I would be lying if I said at no point did I resent my mum for me having sight problems as our condition is hereditary. To be honest though I hated the world because to my mind it hated me. I was a self obsessed teenager as they all are to some extent. My mum being the closest to me was the focus of that and I am sorry for the worry and hurt I caused her. However my mum was always there for me no matter how much of a cow I was. Now that I am a mum I am finally beginning to understand how difficult it is being a parent. Kids don't come with an instruction manual and all you can do is do your best.
However I have lots of wonderful memories of our time as a family. We used to do lots together at the weekends. I loved out trips to the roller rink and swimming or just playing board games together. I hope that I can do the same for my children spending real quality time with them is so important. I used to long for the school holidays and wished they would never end as I would much rather be with my family then at school.
Because my mum also had cataracts as a baby that has helped her to be able to help me. I feel I am the person I am today because of her encouragement and her determination that I should be as independent as possible and for that mum there are no the words to express my gratitude. Her story of travelling on her own to Italy to surprise my dad when they were newly weds is a great inspiration. It shows me that if I am determined enough I can do whatever I set my mind to.
We are so close in so many ways and it is brilliant that I have a mum who I am also proud to call my friend. However I think the only down side of this is that we on occasion hurt each others feelings without realising it. For this mum I am truly sorry. I feel that when I let you down it hurts more because I love you so much and I don't want to hurt you.
Now I am an adult and have, well hopefully, grown up a bit I love spending time with my mum. We do have a good laugh when we are together and we have certainly had our share of fun adventures. One that springs to mind is when I won a pair of cinema tickets in a competition. We had a bit of a trek to get to the Cinema as it was in London and it was a bit of a panic wondering whether we would catch out train home as at first we got on the wrong underground platform then had a dash through a shopping centre that was about to close to get to the station but we made it and had lots of laughs on the way.
I am so grateful that God gave me such a special, funny, wonderful and caring mum. I really pray that I can follow her example and be a good mum to my boys. I know I will not always get it right but I have an exceptional example to follow.
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