My husband is not a Christian and in fact he follows what appears to be a very different path. As I did not have any particular strong views on faith it's not something we really talked about much before we got married. I knew a little about his faith but not much really and he has until recently been fairly private about it and that was OK with me.
When we were first married there was a lot going on in our lives with our new house, work and then with the birth of our children. Particularly with Andrew and all his eye surgery there was little space to think about anything else in our lives.
Around the time that William started school things had settled down into a good routine. Kevin started to be more active in his own faith path. When I decided to write about this I asked him what the best way to describe his faith was. He said it's hard to explain it simply. I said that when I try to explain to people I tell them that he believes an Egyptian Goddess guides him and that he also believes in a lot of Pagan / Celtic stuff too. He said that is probably the easiest way to explain although it's kind of complicated. Kev now goes to several Pagan / Wiccan gatherings a year and is active in several Pagan groups online.
To be honest as a new Christian I felt a bit overwhelmed by his revived interest in this aspect of his life. I was really not sure how to handle it. I was really worried that it might be something I could not get past and that my newly found faith may not be reconciled with his. I have prayed a lot about my feelings and I have talked to people at my Church about it who have been very supportive.
I really believe that we are now closer in understanding each other then ever before. I admit there are still some aspects of his spiritual life I feel uncomfortable with because of my own faith but I think this is also partially because I don't fully understand it.
I was really pleased that Kevin came to my Baptism and although I know he did not listen to the sermon I wish he had. The Pastor that day said something that has stuck with me these past 2 years. I can't remember it word for word but the Pastor said that God has done wonderful things in his life and even if he is wrong about God (although he is certain he isn't) then at the end of the day he has lived a spirit filled and blessed life and that can't be a bad thing.
Kev's path might not be for me and visa versa. There are aspects that are very different. However we both feel that we are growing in spirituality and Kevin is always asking questions about my experiences and about what's going on at Church / House Group. I hope he has seen a change for the better in me. I am happy that we can talk about out own experiences and we have had many a discussion about how happy I am in my Church being as it is so Spirit led and we are encouraged to have our own personal relationship with the Holy Spirit.
I do feel that something drew us together and as I have said in previous blogs I don't believe there is such a thing as coincidence everything is part of God's plan for us. I do feel that although our spiritual lives appear on the surface very different I do believe there are aspects at the core that are very similar. I don't believe it is right for me to judge Kev's path or indeed anyone's we all have to make our own decisions in life. A loving relationship is based on mutual respect of each other and I think we have arrived at a place where we do respect each others paths we accept the differences and value the similarities.
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