It really is a great environment to work in as all my colleagues are all Christians and there can not be many jobs out there where the boss says if it's quiet feel free to get your bible out and have a read. We also have our TV channel on in the office and as I don't have Sky TV at home it is the first time I had really got to watch Christian based TV.
Over the first few weeks in my new job I was learning how to use the computer system. Unfortunately for me the software used to input donations over the phone is not compatible with Windows accessibility settings so I was not able to increase the size very much. I am lucky that I have a nice large screen to use and by sitting close up to the screen I can read it fine for short periods of time. I also had my first experience of praying with people over the phone. It was quite difficult at first knowing what to say and I feel it was because I was over thinking it rather then allowing the Lord to help me but more on that in another post.
The start of my second month in the job was my first Praise a Thon. During this week our phone lines are open from 8am to 1am the next day as opposed to our usual 10am to 4pm. We have lots of extra staff in the office and also there is lots of extra work available for us. I put my name down to do a few extra hours and was really looking forward to the challenge. I felt that I had now got the hang of the computer system and was ready to go.
Well they say pride comes before a fall. One evening when I went into work the bosses daughter called me aside and said that I had made a few mistakes the night before, nothing that could not be easily fixed but she said I needed to be aware of it and more careful. I felt so bad I felt I had really let the team down and I felt that this stupid mistake would not have happened if I had been able to see properly and had not missed what was a really simple mistake.
The next day after taking my son to school I came home and I just cried and cried. I felt wretched and did not know whether I could go back to work that night. I prayed about it and eventually realised that it really was a very small mistake and that I should not let it stop me from going back.
I did go back that night and everything was fine. No one said anything about what had happened and I realised that it was in the past and as long as I had learned from my mistake no one would say any more.
On reflecting on this experience over a year later it's clear to me that I had had such a powerful experience at Church before I started the job that I knew this job was part of God's plan for my life and that I would grow and learn a lot from doing the job and from my work colleagues. I feel that the Enemy played on my doubts in myself and in my abilities because of my disability. Luckily for me I did go back as I would have missed out on so much if I had given up.
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